First post in a long time. My last post was near the start of the year and this one is near the end. It's been a really tough year. There was a point where I thought things were really going well. I felt so much joy, happiness and hope. And then it all came crashing down. These last few months and especially these last few weeks have been extremely difficult. I feel like so much of myself has been lost and crushed. I lost my best friend. I lost the person I was closest to and who I wanted to share everything with. I'm trying to heal from this. Every single minute is a struggle.